As a desperate soul, we lay dieing in our own demise as we see the end coming nearer and we realize that we never really lived but it’s too late to give a damn or do a fucking thing. Just an epiphany that we figure out like when we realize that adults and kids can be equally as interested in cartoons and saying we can’t do something because of our age makes us look more immature than we really want to be. It bites us in the ass until it consumes us and we fall wayside to the bottomless pit of decaying bodies, crunching down on the oldest corpses who’ve wasted away to a thin layer of dust and bone fragments left over from a tooth.
If I was your everything why do you treat me like I’m nothing
How could I ever look at you the same way, now that we’re apart
How could I ever trust you again now that you’ve broken my heart
Its like I’m in a nightmare and I can’t seem to wake
Continuously falling as I try to escape
Don’t try to touch me now when you haven’t been trying
Don’t try comforting me now that you seen me crying
I’m so lost without
I think I’ve lost my mind
My wit is at an end and I’m trying to find a reason
I can’t find myself
My heart is barely beating
Give me one last kiss before you leave me
The gears are slowly turning
Smoking as you think
Think of all the reasons why you have to leave
Meanwhile my heart is breaking
And you are taking my breath away
Where did you go now?
You’ve left me home again
I’ve lost my mind once more
And my soul’s gone with it
My will to live is waning
My want to die is growing
Will you even try to save me?
I’m so lost without
I think I’ve lost my mind
My wit is at an end and I’m trying to find a reason
I can’t find myself
My heart is barely beating
Give me one last kiss before you leave me
i know i’m not what you’ve ever wanted
but i’m all you’ve ever gotten
i know you don’t really need me
but i’m the one begging and grieving for you
Just let me fall into you
Just let me breathe your life
I don’t want to leave you behind
You’re the apple of my eye
What happened to our love?
Why did it spoil so quickly?
I hope it’s not someone new
I hope you haven’t found anybody
Don’t stab me now, I’m already bleeding
My heart will not go on
How could you deceive me?
where are you when i need you the most?
where have you gone this time?
why can’t you be here with me?
why can’t you be mine?
All our lives points to this
Why must you fight?
Bring me your heart
Bring me to life
why can’t i have you
when i know that you’re there
why must you run from me
why are you so scared
Don’t turn your back on me
I’m the one who holds you up
Please come back to me
I haven’t had enough of your love
Why must you hide from me?
Why can’t we just be…
So long ago, I first met you
It was then, I knew I loved you
I’d do anything for you
Just to win your heart
I know you’re broken
I see your pain
I know you’re unhappy
You think you’re insane
But I can feel you running away from me
Why can’t you see?
Don’t turn your back on me
I’m the one who holds you up
Please come back to me
I haven’t had enough of your love
I’d give everything just for you
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
To keep you safe within my arms
I can feel you taking over my heart
it’s so hard to not give up
When you feel so close to the edge
You can feel yourself weakening
as you move closer to the ledge
Despair starts creeping in
and the fear starts gripping at your chest
Hush, now, don’t you start crying
You can’t cry this pain away
Stop for a moment and think about it
Will this help anything?
I know you’re crawling out your skin
Clawing at the broken hearts on top
But don’t forget you’re tougher than you think
I know that you’re tougher than I thought
Look at the time that’s flying by
See the problems that you’ve faced
No use of asking why
Just get the hell out of this place
Run away; just get away from here
Don’t you ever turn back
Keep going, get as far as you can
until you find yourself at home again
Don’t you worry, I’m here for you
I promise I won’t leave
I’ll always stay by your side
Now you’re stuck with me
Hush, now, don’t you start crying
You can’t cry this pain away
Stop for a moment and think about it
Will this help anything?
I know you’re crawling out your skin
Clawing at the broken hearts on top
But don’t forget you’re tougher than you think
I know that you’re tougher than I thought
Whisper to me all of your secrets
I promise that I’ll keep them safe
Bond with me over simple things
And I’ll carry you inside my heart
Don’t break my trust and I won’t break you
Let’s just live this life in silence
I want you to stay forever
And I know that’s not what you want
Hush, now, don’t you start crying
You can’t cry this pain away
Stop for a moment and think about it
Will this help anything?
I know you’re crawling out your skin
Clawing at the broken hearts on top
But don’t forget you’re tougher than you think
I know that you’re tougher than I thought
I give myself cancer
I give myself pain
I start all of my problems
Over and over again
I give myself cancer
Thinking that I’ll change
Hoping for the best
But you’re simply playing games with my head
Holding me by the throat
Sliding deep into my core
You suck the life right out of me
Leave me on the floor just like you found me
Just take my spirit now
Feed upon my sadness
Feed into my pain
I’ll give myself cancer
Just one more time again
I don’t remember the color of his eyes
Nor can I recall the angle of his scars
I’ve forgotten how he brushed his hair
And I no longer know his favorite show
His “usual” at the cafe is no longer usual
Our hugs have gone, unlike the scars I can’t envision
His height is something I can’t think of
My memories seem fuzzy on his age
I don’t remember if he woke up 20 or 30 minutes early
Or if his lopsided smile was on the left or right side
I’ve forgotten how his fingers strummed
But I remember that he played in the store
I can’t remember what made him happy
And the sad part, is that neither can he
I’m lonely and alone
Holed up in my own mind
Chained to the memories
Wasting all my time on you
Thinking of what we used to be
All the saved texts
And all the saved pills that could have killed me
They come rushing to the front
Begging me to be the next big thing
But what could I have done?
You’re still there, here in my heart
Tearing away at those thickened walls
Destroy from within all the way to the outside
I can tell it’ll be too late when you realize what you’ve done to me
Oh what have you done to me?
You’re not my best kept secret but you’re my biggest mistake
A motion of disaster, you’re my mind’s own slave
Chained onto the past for the rest of your nights
Holding out for chance to change your own life
Living in the darkness of my own light
Silently screaming into the depths of my mind
Working these words to make you feel something deep
But at the end of the day, they don’t mean a thing
Stop my party on my behalf, and let the rain fall down
Lose all control, we’re setting fire to this town
This night is the beginning of the end, my dearest friend
Swallow the bullet you’ve saved yourself
Don’t wanna waste the steal on somebody else
A soul to remember, soley yours to take
You could kill yourself now, rob your pain away, but where would I be left?
Was it an awkward conversation?
Did you lead in with a laugh?Could you have done anything to make the feeling last?
You only asked for nothing and all you dreamed about was love,
Always saying the words to bring back was never really was.
Sing me to sleep,
Sing me to sleep.
I can see your tongue coming out your mouth,
Slithering around the whispered wars of our sleep,
Saying things that we wish we could mean.
Who do you think you’re fooling, boy?
Who do you think you’re tricking?
Wind me up and let me go like you’ve done so many times before.
It’s time to say goodnight, so just close your eyes and dream away all of our heart’s casualties